Facing the world

I though Anne had chubby cheeks and was my wee Buddha, then I caught this while Eliza was enjoying the (brief) sunshine in Scotland this past weekend:

Daddy and baby, 2012 and 2015

Shot almost exactly three years apart (give or take a few days).

Reasons to Stay Alive, Matt Haig

I asked my former colleague for a copy of Reasons to Stay Alive, and it may have taken me a while, but I’ve read it — over a day, no mean feat if you’re a mum of a(nother) baby who doesn’t like to sleep unless she’s being held.

(Thanks, Mum, for holding her while I lay in bed resting to overcome a possible case of mastitis.)

To be perfectly honest, I approached it with a little trepidation. I have not felt comfortable mentioning what I’m about to mention, as I feel it is not my right to do so, but in the last few weeks I have had news of an old friend losing a battle with depression. I have been dwelling on thoughts of him — and his family who survive him — on a regular basis ever since.

If you’re suffering from the condition, it may help you to read an honest account of someone else’s experience and how they’re getting through it, I don’t know. It made me sad that my friend could have made a different decision — like Matt did — with the support of his family. But I heard he didn’t talk about it.

And so. My friend did what he did.

Matt’s (I think I met Matt Haig when Canongate published The Radleys, so it’s not pretentious that I’m using his first name. Heh) style in this book is so personal and does seem like the most genuine peek into the mind of a depressive. I can’t imagine what it must be like to feel there is no light at the end of the tunnel, that you just need to make it go quiet by becoming nothing. But Reasons to Stay Alive gives me a clue. It helps me understand a little why my friend made that choice.

If only he had found a reason not to.

满月和生日

While it hasn’t exactly flown by… Eliza is a month old.

One month old

And Anne is three this week!

Anne the busy bee

Eliza

And her very proud big sister!

Anne and Eliza

Vitriol is expected

All this bad feeling about the results of the general election! I’ve read bitterly disappointed words and also — frankly — crude and immature ones, too (referring to Cameron as power-hungry because he can’t, er, satisfy his wife’s needs, but not in those words).

The voters have spoken (read: if you didn’t vote because you couldn’t be arsed, shut the fuck up). Even if your candidate didn’t get in, you need to respect the wishes of those who did vote. Insulting your friends online who may not have voted the way you wanted them to just shows that for all your talk about freedom, fairness, and democracy, you’re basically a hypocrite.

In the end, politicians are politicians. I believe a strong civil service is more important since they outlive party politics. That’s the major issue that needs fixing here.

(The only real shame about the Conservative victory is a certain person said they’d leave Britain if they lost. Darn it.)

Daddy’s girl

But Anne isn’t Neil’s princess, she’s his apprentice.

bed assembly 1

In light of baby #2 coming very soon, we’ve been getting our place ready. Slowly. We’ve had some furniture delivered from everyone’s favourite affordable Swedish flat-pack furniture retailer, and this was the day Neil was putting Anne’s new bed together. He asked if she wanted to help.

bed assembly 2

Anne mainly saw her role as trying to put as many screws and bolts into as many holes as possible, but she did learn how to use an Allen key and — according to Neil — actually did a pretty good job.

bed assembly 3

What she was really after, though, was the hammer. Er, no chance, kid.